Unbearable Agony: A Personal Fight Against the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headaches
It began on a overcast weekday morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new class, when a intense pain sprang behind my one eye. Then came quick stabs, like lightning bolts. As each class came and went, the pain subsided and then came back with greater intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and hurried to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I tried aspirin, but the agony remained unbearable.
The attacks returned frequently that fall, and again in the spring, soon establishing an annual pattern. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the pattern: aura in the morning, early pangs on the train, full-on agony in class by mid-morning. In late 2019, a doctor eventually referred me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.
Cluster headaches often begin with severe discomfort behind one eye that persists for several hours.
About 1 in 1000 individuals suffer by the disorder, and males are more often affected. Attacks typically begin with abrupt, severe pain around a single eye that peaks within a short time and continues for as long as three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, every day or multiple times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial sweating. I have an episodic type, which occurs in periodic cycles; others have continuous attacks, characterized by the lack of long symptom-free periods.
What connects patients is the intensity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than broken bones or pancreatitis. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm amid bouts; the number fell to four percent when they were pain-free.
Val Hobbs, 74, a chronic sufferer from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would throw myself on the floor and hit my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her adolescence, like several triggers, made things worse. After drinking sherry at her graduation party, she remembers barely being able to see on the transport home.
Her family often interpreted her attacks as intoxicated episodes. Support eventually came from her father and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after moving, but often hid her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to absences during episodes. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.
Still, the inability to plan daily activities around erratic attacks took its toll. She especially disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the small liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.
Headaches have been documented across the ages. “The first description of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the subject. They attributed the disease to an malevolent entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads.
Ancient medical records suggest unusual treatments for what some experts would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, migraine was recognised as a distinct condition, with treatments including bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.
It was a European physician who provided the initial comprehensive account of a cluster headache. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing each day at specific hours”.
The disorder were only formally recognised by global headache societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a key artery that supplies blood to the head. Leading specialists in treating the disorder explain this.
In 1998, scientists published the results of a study for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the attacks in a brain scanner. The results, featured in a major journal, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they felt better.
In spite of such advances, diagnosis remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent four surgeries before eventually being correctly identified in recently, after a physician researched his symptoms.
Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other common head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A thorough patient history is crucial: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how long? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Specific characteristics such as redness, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But a lot of first go to emergency rooms or are given inadequate treatments.
A charity trustee, 78, has experienced the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes dentists still need greater awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was she who replied. The author recalls calling a helpline during an bout in 2021; a calm volunteer talked me through oxygen therapy and drugs until the episode eased.
Official guidance on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a specific drug delivered by injection. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive choices include verapamil, which reportedly helps manage the attacks of well-known people.
But leading specialists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a more defined clinical process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The duration of the bout determines the approach.” Brief bouts with occasional episodes are managed with acute treatment alone. Longer or more severe bouts require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an procedure into the area of the head where the pain is that reduces nerve activity.
The official guidelines need revising to reflect a